Gonna be blunt

I have told all the people I know. Figured that it was best they know cause if I go down like I did a few years ago, I need to know who will bail. Thought I would start to weed out the people closest to me who could not deal with it before I was a huge mess. Alot of things I say here will be very difficult to type. Although everyone aroundt me is aware of it, they do not know the details. Very few know of the details that I face and struggle with each day. Those of you who may read this and are bipolar you know what I mean. In the past I share the darkest and most difficult stuff with people who I know are bipolar/depressed. I am on meds to minimize the impact on my life and I do see a therapist. Although lately I find it very difficult to speak to her about whats goin on in my head. Before I go there I have so much I need to say but when I'm there I blank out. Any ideas on how to combat it are welcome. Thank you to all those who wrote the blogs I have read. It was those words that helped me make my mind up about speaking out about my daily struggle.