weekend from hell

Its been a long weekend. Working at the restuarant we had 3 different off site caterings. Located all over town while having to work the line at the same time. This was not plesant. I have been fluctuating up and down for a few weeks now but this weekend I really needed to pull it together. I only managed to just barely make it through. I had a few burnt, over cooked, undercooked, and cold dishes go out. I could not help the " I suck, why am I even allowed to cook, I'm the worst souschef ever" This is the usual depression mantra. I have faith in my Chef for choosing me but I dont have faith in myself now. I feel so drained not physicaly but mentaly. Its times like this that I think about not being a Chef. Not cause I dont want to but because I dont think I will make it. If someone with this issue will be able to keep up with everyone else. To be a chef you need to be mentaly on top of your game every hour the restaurant is open. You never know on your time off when you will get called in. I dont know. Thought my meds were working but these few weeks I start to doubt it. Guess time to move up my next appointment and really think bout the meds...